Why did you end up two-timing, Peadar?
After Mié dumped me . . .
Would you let me continue? After Mié left me, I went through six months without a girl. And the longer I went, the more desperate I got. My standards plummeted.
A vicious cycle.
A “Bitch-ious” cycle’s more like it. One thing I learned then was that it was much easier to find someone new, someone better when you were already with someone. And so, my relationship with Tatami, morphed into a relationship with . . .
No, I was seeing another woman on the side.
Sorry, but that’s the way it was. Anyways, that relationship, or should I say those relationships, blended into the relationship that developed with Haruka.
And your affair with Akané?
I intended to eventually leave Haruka for Akané once I was sure that Akané was the one I wanted to be with.
Eventually? You dated the two of them simultaneously for quite some time.
That hadn’t been the plan.
What was “the plan”, Peadar?
I was going to dial down the relationship with Haruka and dial up the . . . I know how it must sound.
Do you now? So, did you “dial down” your relationship with Haruka?
A bit, yes. We would see each other only about once every one or two weeks, usually on the weekend. With Akané, it was more like once or twice a week. But, because of the nature of Akané’s work—she usually had weekdays off—we would meet during my afternoon breaks, on weeknights, occasionally on a weekend. I was definitely spending more time with Akané. And, to be quite honest, I was happier with her than I had been with another woman in a long time. For once, I wasn’t looking back. I wasn’t preoccupied by “what ifs”, anymore.
So, what went wrong?